I HAVE BEEN WRITING FOR THE PAST EIGHT YEARS. I DONT HAVE ANY TRAINING OR EXPERIENCE AT IT.BUT I HAVE IN THE LAST TWO YEARS PUT TOGETHER A BOOK LOSLEY BASED ON THE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS OF MY LIFE ALONG WITH A SPOKEN WORD/POERTY BOOK. I WANTED TO KNOW IF THERE IS A WAY FOR ME TO GET THESE THINGS,INFRONT OF THE CORRECT PEOPLE?THOSE PEOPLE BEING THE ONES WHO CAN TELL ME IF IVE BEEN WAISTING MY TIME.OR THAT WHAT IVE WRITTEN IS WORTH PUTTING INFRONT OF THE PUBLIC? YOU CAN EMAIL ME AT JPAY .COM
When did being an emotional man become the norm,probably the same time as skinny jeans, tight shirts,or being on lock for a sexcrime became the new in thing????? (I say the last, because alot of people are locked up for it now and every time I turn on the news.Thats what thier talking about)
I know that having emotions is a part of “human”nature,but when did it become okay for a “man” to base his thoughts,actions,ideas,ambitions and being,on emotions???????????
( When I say emotion,Im talking about. Spite,love,trust,sensativity and becoming emotionally attached.Oh I almost forgot waiting for months to bring up a situation that happend in the past, too through it in anothers face ,or to not do something.)
The things that a women hopes to get from a man,but cant.As I write this,Im looking at one “man” look deep into anothers eyes spilling his guts,about things he should be talking to a woman about.(If he or some of these other “men”did that with the women that they say that they love they’d have a deeper bound)
I might be looking at that question from the wrong angle,that being from behind “bars”.I dont know ?but it seems like alot of the men I maround or see on tv. Are on some other shit.Maybe its just this generation If that is the answer ?I think that we as a people are in a world of trouble.
Theres probably a lot of women that might feel like its a great thing,thatmen are getting “soft”.I hope that none of them get at me about this,because those womens men probably borrow thier pants.No im just bullshitting,If they or you want to give me a better insight on why men are getting soft?Please let me know.Then I could ask some of these tuff,soft ass men that run around here all day .If thats whats wrong with them to? What ever you tell me might explain why they run around all day trying to grab eachothers balls like its funny.Are sitting in eachothers face telling another “man”what thier hopes,dreams and ambitions are.
If women could really see how their “men”act in here and out there on the low.They would lose all respect.It might seem like im going a little to hard on these guys,but if “you” got to sit at the back table,of the dayroom for a couple minutes and saw some of the things that these “men”do are say to eachother you wouldnt believe it.
I’ll end this by saying that I do not write this to pass judgement,considering I killed my mothers boyfriend,for him getting her to lie to the police against me to get me’ locked up. To do things to her and my lil brother that I wont talk about.Im writing this because after 8 years of hearing and seeing it I still cant figure it out??????????
As I sit in this cell,I find myself at a loss to this question.Why have I
spent the last 7 years doing everything I can to change? By that I mean that I have changed my thinking and acting,along with finding out that knowleadge is the best “tool” for a person who really aspir great at everything he attempts in life.
I am struggling with the question because,the people who say that they give a fuck.Say that they forgive me for my past,because they see that I really have changed,that I have showed them with actions not hollow words .But while they say that they treat me as if shit is the same,in some cases worse then they treated me when I first caught this case.I know that I have done some cruel things to family and friends,but why say that you forgive and that your here to help if I need it,if your always gonna bring up or think about my past before you do something that I’ve asked.
The funny part is that I’ve forgiven the person who lied to get me locked up on my last case.Causing me to get out and catch this case.I take full resposibility for what I did but it would never had happened,if not for a lie from a person who says they love me.
I think that alot of people find themselves asking the same question?k
If you have any input on a situation like the one I speak of,please let me know.I would apprecite the insight.Just to be sure of what I’m asking,I’ll make it clearer.Whats the point of changing if your still going to be treated the same??
My name is Lamont Edwards I’m 37 and have been incarcerated since 1-3-07 My early release date is 3-16-2017 my max is 3-16-2018.
You have been an extension of me and me of you
Your shadow is beside mine in every memory of this present and our future My every breath is yours My thoughts yours My happiness yours All these things yours because my life since 4-29-98 has been yours
I want you to know that all these years after your death I would still catch all your bullets add them to the one still in my head and be happy In knowing that I trully was able to be my brothers keeper
REST IN PEACE K.L.E 79-98