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Zachary James Santos
DOC #300774

Into The Deep

Caught up in this wave, my arms are tired of paddling.

It would be so easy to stop kicking and slip away.

My head above the surface, my body full of pain.

Crying out for someone, my heart feels the strain.

The tide keeps pulling me under, I need to breathe, and I keep thinking that my life was a waste.

All that i could have done, the words I’ll never get to say.

My lungs fill with shame, and yet, here I remain.

Why do I choose this pain? I keep swimming for what reason? What do I hope to gain?

Barreling underwater twisted in this wave, I come up, the sun shines bright upon my face.

Suddenly I realize that I cannot escape my fate.

Effort spent on suffering, and fighting this wave, contemplating past days, becomes a waste.

Floating in the ocean, I meditate.
Understanding, I must let go, to live fully in this moment before I am washed away.

This choice I make, to become one with the wave.

I release all of my pain, I let it go, I’ll just let it be,

For this breath of life, right now, is all that I need,

sliding down this wave as it tumbles over me.

I can see through the other side, as water flows under me.

I smile, and give thanks to the Great Spirit watching constantly.

I am grateful to have chosen joy amongst the chaos this ocean brings.

For I am free to have faith, and believe, that every moment that I live, I can live purposely lovingly, laughing happily, awakened spiritually, living the visions I imagined to become my reality.

Zachary James Santos
DOC #300774

Late Introduction

My name is Zachary James Santos, and I was sentenced to 18 years- four months to serve in prison for murder in the second degree.
This was in 2006. I was 19 years old at the time.

Everything i post online are the stories, experiences, and thoughts i’ve collected over the years of being incarcerated.

I will also give exposure to people and things that I find interesting or inspiring.

Overall, this blog will be an open line of communication to share and receive feedback on everything that goes on within these walls, and within the heart and mind of myself as well.

Zachary James Santos
DOC #300774

Zachary James Santos

Zachary James Santos

So, there is so many things to talk about on a platform such as this. But, this being a major outlet for all of us that are incarcerated, i want to just say that there is definitely a legacy of trauma that is being perpetuated within not only the heart and minds of the men and women locked up, but, also the communities in which majority of us come from. And to be clear, i’m not talking about the upper echelon of society. We are the working class, lower middle-class, and the one’s in poverty. The crimes we commit are usually in our own community, and the people we hurt are those closest to us, or people we had no idea were actually linked to us by a friend or another. Why does this cycle seem to exist only in our towns? And why is it everyone is getting out of prison just to come back so soon? I’m trying to understand how to stop this, and how to heal from all this. What do you think?

I’m workin with Stone City Blog to awaken the hearts and minds of all those suffering, and that are in the struggle.

Zachary James Santos
DOC #300774